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Karma.
People often think of karma in a reactive way. If you do bad things, you will attract bad things. If you do good things, you will attract good things. This happens to an extent but it is not a factor of karma. Karmas are the habits you are locked into; your habitual way of seeing and engaging the world in a manner specific to you. As long as you have active karma, you will be actively repeating your mistakes and delusions. Your actions do not determine your karma but rather demonstrate your karma. Karma only has power over you when you live through habit. Habitual living is a way of life that requires minimum awareness. You don’t have to think, you let your habits live for you. This is what perpetuates illusion and ignorance. When you become aware of your habitual patterns, you are given the opportunity to emerge from your conditioned illusions. Karma means drawing from your past experience in order to determine your future, as opposed to living self-created in the moment and moving with the way life unfolds. Karma narrows the way you experience Existence. It is what convinces you that a bottle is a bottle and your flaws are your flaws. Karma is the story you tell yourself about the world and your lot in life. It tries to freeze and define the world instead of allowing you to see it as the continual dance of form and emptiness that it is. Karma is like darkness in a room. You cannot affect the darkness directly. Instead, you must turn on a light and the darkness vanishes. That is the practice of meditation. Over time you become intensely present and begin to experience your existence without definition. Karmas fall away when you realize through experience that there is infinitely more wisdom available to you in the present moment Existence than there is knowledge in your mind and its habits.
Meu querido,
Essa noite assisti a um filme e comecei a me sentir mal, estava com febre, dores, mal-estar, cansaço. Mas passou uma cena do filme onde perguntaram: ‘Quantas Sophie você acha que existem?’ E logo em minha mente, me perguntei: ‘Quantos Renan existem?’ Foi quando comecei a chorar. Quando eu fiz essa pergunta e conforme o filme foi passando, me emocionei. Pensei nos nossos bons momentos, na felicidade que você me proporciona, no nosso amor em si! Mas não deixei de pensar no valor que eu dou a ele e a você. E eu já te disse uma vez meu amor, que sei exatamente os meus erros. Eu ainda me sentia mal, mas mesmo assim não quis desligar a tv e vir descansar. Sabe porque? Porque mesmo que o filme estava numa parte triste, eu sabia que ele ia ter um final feliz! E eu não poderia deixar de assistir. E quando você vê nos filmes, que no final tudo dá certo, isso me fortalece. Ainda choro e não sei o que seria da minha vida sem você. Você que é meu único Renan, que me faz feliz, que apareceu na minha vida por alguma razão, meu anjo. E a moral que levo desse filme é: ‘No amor, nunca é tarde”. E é ai, que lhe peço desculpa por cada momento que não te fiz feliz.
Eu te amo muito.
Essa noite assisti a um filme e comecei a me sentir mal, estava com febre, dores, mal-estar, cansaço. Mas passou uma cena do filme onde perguntaram: ‘Quantas Sophie você acha que existem?’ E logo em minha mente, me perguntei: ‘Quantos Renan existem?’ Foi quando comecei a chorar. Quando eu fiz essa pergunta e conforme o filme foi passando, me emocionei. Pensei nos nossos bons momentos, na felicidade que você me proporciona, no nosso amor em si! Mas não deixei de pensar no valor que eu dou a ele e a você. E eu já te disse uma vez meu amor, que sei exatamente os meus erros. Eu ainda me sentia mal, mas mesmo assim não quis desligar a tv e vir descansar. Sabe porque? Porque mesmo que o filme estava numa parte triste, eu sabia que ele ia ter um final feliz! E eu não poderia deixar de assistir. E quando você vê nos filmes, que no final tudo dá certo, isso me fortalece. Ainda choro e não sei o que seria da minha vida sem você. Você que é meu único Renan, que me faz feliz, que apareceu na minha vida por alguma razão, meu anjo. E a moral que levo desse filme é: ‘No amor, nunca é tarde”. E é ai, que lhe peço desculpa por cada momento que não te fiz feliz.
Eu te amo muito.
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| — | with love, Thais. (via sweeetha) |
Day 2:
Left my house with Ashley, went over to Zak’s dorm. Am actually staying over here. Sat around but had great conversations. Talked about our future. If there even is one. Talked about 2012 and how we are suppose to end in December. Technically, Ceaser invented Leap year in 1800 BC, I believe it was around there, which was much after the fact of the Mayan’s calendar. Meaning 2012 isn’t real - they didn’t have Leap year to take into consideration. Therefore, the end of the world should have been years ago. Just a thought.
Are there any new clubs in the California area?
There’s nothing to do in Fresno that hasn’t already been done. Being a traveller I’m ready to pack up and go somewhere different. I want to go to Zimbabwe. Or India. I’m interested in new cultures. I need someone to tag along with me.
Kasibulan. January 8, 2012.
This is my first personal upload.
This is the cover of one of my journals. (It was scanned for a submission and I edited the lighting in Ps.) I rarely draw. But I really draw and I also paint. It has been always my dream to be an artist someday. And this blog is only a proof that I really love art. Although I cannot update this blog every day (unlike last year, since I started this blog last April 2011) I always check my dashboard to look for different art works. This blog and also the other art blogs which I follow (thank you so much to them and to you) helped me to realize how really difficult the “creative process” is in which every artist undergoes. It’s like, for me, a mixed struggle and sometimes excitement or even euphoria.
“The artistic life is a long, lovely suicide.” — Oscar Wilde
I will never forget how I felt while drawing this one. It’s that time when I was really affected deeply by a person.
Last day, I was not expecting that 2headedsnake will dig my archive and will feature an old post. Thank you. I really hope that those artists’s whose works were posted by some blogs will know that their works are being featured and are being viewed by the rest of the world.
